As I sit here pondering on my life, the good, the bad, and all the in between I can see the faithfulness of God. As a young girl dealing with abandonment and rejection I couldn’t comprehend anything other than the deep pains of those wounds. My earliest memory is being in counseling at 5 trying to process the deep emotion my heart was experiencing. I grew up raised by my aunt and uncle who were amazing people! They raised me in the Catholic Church, taught me right from wrong and loved me in such a way that I couldn’t even recieve. Why? Because I was broken! My heart longed for love, so I did what pleased others in the hopes that theses wounds would find healing and my heart wouldn’t feel broken! Good grades, excellent behavior, obedient… but yet I was dying on the inside. Fast forward to the day I met JESUS! I don’t know how I ended up at an altar. I didn’t know what this overwhelming feeling was…. what was happening to me…. the Reckless love of God! I met it… and it wasn’t limited to an altar. Every night I would lay on my kitchen floor after I put my kids to bed and his love would meet me! He chased me down… he loved me like no other! There is nothing and no one that could give me this kind of love! I surely didn’t earn it, I was a sinner, I was broken, I was angry…. but he came! Over and over again… he came! His love has never stopped coming! As I posture myself at his feet and wipe them with my tears his reckless love meets me! There is a place that is only destined for you and him! There is a beating in his heart for you! As a think about my past, my hurts, my brokenness… I can clearly see how my Father was with me! How his love protected me, how he has held every tear, and so passionately pursued me! Yield yourself to the lover of your soul and you will never regret it! All God is asking for is you, all of you… to know you! There is a song we worship to every night that says DEEP IN JESUS HEART THERE IS A PLACE FOR YOU! Deep In Jesus heart there is a love for you!!!
“See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him.”
1 John 3:1
“For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths, from the realm of the dead.”
Psalms 86:13 NIV
Written by Pam Hernandez
Thanks for sharing this. Somehow I stumbled onto this blog and I’m so glad I did. Reading up on the women that is on here and that they have older kids and younger kids as well makes me realize I’m not alone in this world. I feel like something is missing in my life and reading some of these post really touched me in a way I can’t explain. Thanks for being open and sharing from your heart.
That’s Awesome Laurie!!! You are not alone!!!